Thursday, August 10, 2006

Spring Loaded Window Shades

Too late for yesterday too early for tomorrow Again

But why do you filter? There was a strong holding lock my heart strings d, q did not allow anyone to approach the box was protected, I left a riconcito, the q allowed me to continue feeling the world, that world that repeatedly refused ... but nobody x had to happen.
That's what I really believe q makes me feel guilty, scared, frustrated, like a real idiot when I consider what happened q. Existed only in my head, did nothing to wake him up those illusions, apart from being you, the charity that he appreciated my stupid advice, I back his confidence in myself that my presence could become important at some point on the satisfied sleep after a kiss good noxes x messenger or text message, which exaba less to wake you every morning x There was a smile on my face when someone asked me.
I know, it may be our special xa not anyone but me, just a few weeks, as soon as we know, only started to be friends, there was no reason to think of something else (or rather had muxas reasons think the opposite). This is probably too recent and not very thoughtful (with each word I write I become more vulnerable but no kiero save it, it hurts inside) How can these weeks so affected me? How I can go back to being that girl who is left blind and uncontrolled impulses guide x? How I can be able to write this and feel that is poured inside and what I have in my hands if Pandora's box? How ... how I got aki? Akel
time I think I should have thought of you, and me, xq this has not only messed up a little but your world has turned upside down the mine. I did not, why the hell did not I? Even escuxé the voice of conscience which he warned that there was time, I chose to heed the beating strongly, with so hard that I almost could escape from every pore of my skin, every kiss ... Akella why I ekivoké. Noxe
And vanished, and from Akella morning there were doubts until I saw you, faded, I saw the strength to bet, yes, I did, I believed with my whole soul into it ... the second error, and came third at the thought that there was no need to talk about what happened, we were great, why give over something that apparently is that clear?
Vivamos therefore continue thrilled with every moment.
But I think it was from Friday night, that I did not need any sleep, and was in it. Although at the moment looks up and looked at the stars, it was strange but I felt it was not what I thought was going to lose the bet, he would fall back ... NO! Quiet, nothing happens, my waist was surrounded by your arm, was safe, it was daylight. As he moved farther away, I act or not? No, better that I'm Kieta, finish overwhelming, and we will fix it when we get back or you might just be my paranoia, but to be a paranoia I'm too wrapped, bah, anyway, is not sure, let's go Cazorla and stop thinking. While that echoed in my head did not let to do it, damn it, I was not able to put aside selfishness that devilish who refused to lose. In the evening went something I'm not sure what, but that ended and open the gap between those inches that separated us was a chasm. The next day we returned, and my head did not stop to dwell on all that, I could not change what had already been done, but there was some way to fix it? I kept denying that the only solution was to leave what had just begun, but ... as the day wore d I realized that there was no other way.
-only postponed, you know?
"The q?
"The talk has only postponed, now there is no remedy (...) can not stop this so
"Okay, but around the corner, now
" I know, aki could not
And the next day Kise not see anyone, I did not want to see the face of expectation x a story he did not want to have at least that day, but it was noted, noticed it too. It was something imminent, needed to talk, to tell me what was going through your head, first and foremost I am your friend, I do not care what has happened, what had felt, I only cared to return to the complicity of the past, to tell everything that was happening was important whether or not to miss saying Akella hunch "I'm here, tell me, as did ever, listening to what came from within, without disguise, without looking down. On Tuesday, the panic and doubts surfaced, I knew it would not be able to say everything he felt he could not tell that to me meant muxo what happened but what mattered most to me was that you were able to find your way and next to you keria be me, but no more than a friend, wanted to be there with you, not t worry about anything, there was I, to return honesty to know at all, worth too much in my life to lose ; completely overnight. And he was armed d value to say, but you were not, then the Fear turned to cloud and Wednesday was just a nervous wreck. When night came I did not think the messenger answered, and did, but only keria you free and Akello happen soon, I could not stand up to speak at length, something weighed on my chest no matter what happens do not say anything to worsen things, but do not know how I could get any worse, I keep quiet, just listen to what he has to say. And that's it, nothing, as if nothing had happened, what was that cold air made me shiver x inside? Already has passed, I have not thought of it. in the dark of the night I went through the good times, even the most awful mistakes long, almost everyone who made him to lose faith, my hermanuka was there (do not pierce the noxe aunk aki, I got much everything I said), and again I remember the good that had happened, God had been great, could not deny it, perhaps the fear away? yes, I think it was that I did not know how to act when they see you, but do it again many times, we would still be there, still friends, why ask for more, is all that is needed, even thought there might be something even more good to come, the future is uncertain but each is responsible for tilling little bit ... but my head ached, I was really tired, I shook the pillow, closed my eyes and kiss without sleep happy.

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